I Told Myself I Was A Sh*tty CEO This Morning

Two things:

1) I am getting my Harvard Interview and

2) I told myself I was a horrible CEO this morning.

*3) I really need to work on my confidence.

I am getting my Harvard interview because I am a rocket preparing to launch and they can’t not see that. I am Harvard’s opportunity to catch someone great; I may not have a reason to apply again next year. But in case they don’t see that (yet) I know I’m getting an interview because I’ve at least drummed up curiosity.

I’m a YouTuber. Like period. I sell eBooks. I make videos that get 80K views. Ok, one video. In my height I averaged 8K views per good video, but that’s not nothing and a lot of people can’t do that.

I am a YouTuber. I am a CEO. I am a Fashion Designer. I may be a Harvard Business School Student.

I wonder if Harvard is my version of the Aspen ski season? I need somewhere to be and working in Aspen isn’t the worst place. Is that where I am right now? Do I even really want Harvard? Will I even need business school in 8 months?

YouTube gives me YouTube network. I sell clothes and self help books. I don’t need Harvard’s network because this rocket is launching either way. Plus, it’s only two years and HBS is the best formal education in the thing I want to be great at. It’s Harvard. It’s social validation that I am one of the best. And brightest. It’s my last stamp of approval that says I can make up for all the mistakes in my past. It’s a place to call home for the next two years and it’s cozy with great shopping. It’s me proving to myself that I can make a commitment to stay somewhere for two years. For as long as I promised. I want Harvard; it’s like my finishing school. πŸ’œ

And guess what, I did not drive for Uber yesterday. I filmed half of the 2020 Glow Up video and was so tired I passed out watching KUWTK. I can film the rest tomorrow before I hang out with Theress. Shoutout to Wednesday Uploads! Plenty of time to film. πŸ˜‚

I am filming my first video with affiliate links because I’m an idiot and just realized I could get paid for my YouTube videos. But also thank you for giving me the audience to be able to gain Amazon and Target Influencer approval. You guys mean the world to me.

I sell clothes and self help books (and everything you need to buy to keep up with your lifestyle). I’m not a shitty CEO. I’m building a big system and I’m doing the best I can. And that best is good enough. I am good enough. I am so good that I even deserve someone I can ask for help. In the form of an investor/mentor. I could use a cheerleader with coaching qualities πŸ“ˆ.

Heirs & Hers. Coming soon.


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